Gone Fishing

♥ Happy 50TH Birthday to the Best man I'll ever know. ♥ Happy Birthday to the kindest heart.The comedian I love most,who would tell you like it is..and laugh off the serious ones. To the most creative mind...who would stay up all night to create the best invention or the most beautiful piece of artwork..and make sure it was perfected to the fullest. ♥ Happiest times to you...like you made/make/will to me. ♥ Happy Birthday To the most handsome, down right perfect DADDY! 
♥ If I could make one Birthday Wish for you, It would be what you've always wanted...to keep us all laughing. Never let us get too serious. 
...and my Birthday wish...I wish you to help me to remember that I am your Hero,I am your Squirt, I am your "Mud Cat",and I will always be your tomboy, who rather go fishing. 
Help me to never lose sight of who I am... 

"MAN YOU'RE OLD"
♥ Happy Birthday Marty Skeen ,Daddy-O MY HERO ..

L ♥ VE, Your Haley.

So we are clear

I don't understand a lot. I'll be the first to say it, but something I know to be true, is love. My Dad taught me more about life and love than anyone I've ever met before. 

He,like myself tend to hold things in for a bit , process them..

think of the outcome and try to figure out what actions are needed. 

My Dad, helped build me this way.

Life has been testing me in every way. Let's say the Devil,honestly.

I know I over think every.single.thing,call it what you will. I just know 
there is a reason for everything--

GOD has a plan.

We all know Dad passing, changed me...But honestly it's OK...
I just have a new layer,not a wall..a layer.

I am who I am because GOD made me this way, HE blessed me with my Dad who let me be who I was supposed to be. My Dad never once doubted me. He never told me how to think. He trusted my gut,and respected my thoughts.

He has always helped me through things I never thought I'd face.

Losing him was something I never wanted to think about, but now it's all I think about. I know through all these trials, through all these crazy random tears and insane dreams,Dad is still helping me. GOD is still using him to build me. So I may not know a lot, but like I said... 

I know love

-I'm the same way that I've really always been

----I have no idea where to start this. I feel like no one is really interested in sad blogs, I mean I know I'd much rather read something funny..but I'm just not feeling to funny lately. sorry... I gotta vent and well this is my blog ya know,I'll get retarded later on down maybe..maybe.. I havent bloged lately even after I've promised like a zillion times I'd get better at this. SO here's my update...kinda all slammed into one post- enjoy(ish)

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First things first, waiting around on death certificates is veryyyy frustrating..trying to please every single flippin' person is even harder. PLUS I totally can't get the hang of people coming up to me or calling or texting or anything to tell me they are sorry for my loss. I said "thanks" to some elderly woman at church Sunday.."thanks" really Haley really?!?! how rude!! I couldn't even say the entire phrase. uhhh I felt so dumb, I just feel so awkward and I have no idea how to respond ,but they know that right?!? I felt 15 at that exact second and was so odd feeling. I know I'm being hard on myself and I know everyone knows I'm not myself, but dang I need to put on a face or something. This jazz is hard. I have no clue how to act.

D.C finally came in(yesterday) and I get to start the "cancel everything,take control" process after Christmas,boy am I excited. Luckily I have this crazy controlling gene and I know I can get it done,and oddly I'm almost sure I know exactly what to do yet I've never had to be this person ever. weird?! I think so. I have a leader,I know. ((I say :I KNOW: alot.. when really I'm just a clueless hard head., ehh - can you tell I'm all mixed up!?!? shesh

I've still gotta finish going through his room and pack up what everyone wants. I've got a box going for Hunter( I'mma keep it at Elzy) just cause he lives on an island doesn't mean he misses out on dads things. They'll be waiting on him once he's settled. :)
--I got all dads favorite clothes/any fabric that makes me think of him and I'm going to start making baby blankets for the future out of them after Christmas. He'd love that..and I'm pretty pumped about it. I also gathered all his blue jeans ((If you knew him, you know there is a TON)) and I'm going to create my very first "blue jean quilt" out of them! first quilt ever for me to make! I'm going to keep it in his room on his bed.

I grabbed his favorite comfy blue jean shorts( they are super thin,they're so old) I'm going to cut a heart from them and sew it into the inside chest of my wedding dress one day.. and incorporate the pieces in all kind of things for that day and for my future children.

He knows how focused I am of "that day" and you better believe he'll be there:) Probably poking me and tickling my side as I walk down the aisle solo...yes solo at least to the naked eye. I know he'll be right beside me. I want to walk down solo, I don't want Hunter,Uncle Ricky or Uncle Mike to guide me down..its something I need to do..and it's not that they aren't good enough,it's just that I already have my date for that walk..I always have.
.....that day is no where in site as of today, and nooo I'm not making a joke of (pressure) I just know that I know what to do when that day does come and as always I'm going to "let it happen when it happens" I'm in no rush for the next step ..yet if I was to be asked by Mr. JoshE today I'd scream YES! haha

I'm a firm believer in everything happening for a reason and when its supposed to. FIRM. I know life happens..and I know the "next step" will come when I'm ready. I know that every.single.thing happens with a plan behind it. Even losing my Dad, being so young (both of us) there is a reason..I may never know it but I do know he can protect me forever now..in every situation he'll be with me..with Hunt,with Heidi...
 he's a hero..don't forget it! we won't

HERO

You all know that it's happened, but I never got a chance, or really thought to say "what happened".
Daddy-O passed Saturday November 26th 2011 at around 1:30pm. He woke up that morning,took a shower,took out the trash and layed down for ..well forever.

Dad had an unknown blood clot in his arm from a recent surgery and it traveled to his heart,which resulted in him having a heart attack.It happened so fast he wouldn't have known it. He was asleep in his favorite comfy shorts with a dip in his mouth as always:) ... and ya know just like him to "show me something" right beside him was the card I sent him in the mail days before,just to say "HI" and that I loved him...He spoke to Hunter at 2am and read my card, then he rested..I'm ok with that.

 The other day when I asked for you to pray for him it had nothing to do with what happened Saturday afternoon. I'm so glad he had that much love around him though, proves further more that everything happens for a reason and that it was all God's plan. I'm so very thankful he had so many prayers going up just for him. He knew it too. He also would have never expected all of this and I feel like he would be so shocked and speechless. He's loud and clear to me, I dont feel alone at all, just so overwhelmed and the loss of control, something he knew I hated to be and do. I feel like I am going to learn from him once again, I’ll never stop... I keep looking for "what it is" and I can't think of anything that would be worth losing him. He was me,I was him. WE HAVE a bond that will not be broken. He knows I'm stubborn and he knows I have to control to "get things done".I will keep surprising him with every step I take... and he'll be with me, rooting me on as I "give em hell" as he would say. He wouldn’t expect anything less from me. We trusted each other so much and are so deeply in love with the love ya know. He's my Hero and I will continue to be his. He will be in every smile I make, every tear that falls he will wipe. I have zero doubt. HEROES don't die, and HEROES always have a plan, a mission. ..and I'm on it. iLOVEuMORE

sent from him to me on my birthday

......I will continue to be the STRONG HERO you built me to be

UpdateUpdate.READ ALL ABOUT IT!

Hello darlingssss .. You've all probably caught on to my trend of never bloggin much,or simply "catchin" ya up from time to time. I'mma try to be better. I've just been bored lately and nothing has really been going on// I'm thinking of maybe doing a weekly "VLOG" what  do you think?! I think I wanna just do a "on trend for me now" or like a "weekly rant" orrrr " Your weekly dose of Haley's mind" ahha cause WE ALL KNOW I can't stay on subject, I want it to be completely random... no real "topic" ...differs each week. <3 so get pumped, cause now that I've thought it out a tad.. I'm totally gonna do it.. never mind on y'alls opinion haha
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photo catch up!!

I WENT RED!!

FYAA CRACKAAA

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 Mowgli got fixed!!! He kept licking, so I made him a sweet diaper!

(sing it like the song) around in my automobile!!

love when he does this!

is this a trick?! what did u do Mr. Peanut?!?!

Got the polish I've been looking for! Khloe's lilac she wears on her show sometimes!! (shut up don't laugh.. I mean its not like I searched high and low, me nahh :)

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ok I must go... back to you soon!

Catch up time!!

ooo boy- I know I have tons of ppl just waiting for me to get back on this thing and write!! righttttt.. I'm not interesting! Lets just play this up.... catch up time!!
Seattle!! Here's some pics from my cell- We used Terri's  camera the entire time.. so I'm waiting on all of em..like 200!!

Terri didn't love me all that much once I brought along this baby

little unpacking fun!

cute cute!

Little happy I got for EMMA-HOPE(My niece)

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sorry for all the self portraits,, but half the time my phone was off cause its TOTALLY NARCOLEPTIC!

I have no idea where to start this thing..but I'll just start talking,it'll be random,as is everything I do ...

WE WENT TO DENNY'S I loved my french toast(never been there before)

I was bugging everyone for french toast so they shut me up real fast:)

wasn't complaining!

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Here's some fun quotes from the road trip;

"don't poke the bear"

((insanely jerked car)) ME: what was that?!" Terri: "O I was looking at that billboard" gees

ME: "We coulda drove a hummer.... $1000+ in gas but we could take some shortcuts through the corn fields!"

(Trying to take a picture of the moon and the camera wouldn't work so I went to look at it and it 

snapped a pic of Terri) 

ME: "wait,you're not the moon" 

she died out laughing, we were probably delirious at that point..it would explain a lot!

ME: "The honda was like DMX going up that mountain..sounding like"ehhhhh", 

TERRI:"This entire trip is DMX bahaha

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ooo good times!

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BTW I HATE DANG MOUNTAINS!! with a PASSION! 

I drove all of 30min and most of it was spent in the snow up a dang mountain before the sun came up in  the A.M noooo thank you! I wouldnt believe Terri when she first said "HALEY THAT'S SNOW" didn't wanna trust that!! haha..but I totally pulled over for a photo opp and gladly pranced my way back to the passenger side:) that's how I ROLL!

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soon I'll have pictures! promise,well talk to TERRI :)

LOVE LOVE

My beautiful madness

ELLO LOVES!!

Well the birthday has happened,and what a BIRTHDAY it was!! It was absolutely amazing thanks to everyone!! It was fun packed for sure! We did something Thursday(bday night),Friday night,Saturday day and night and Sunday! wooo I'm tired ha

--Thursday I got an amazing HOUR AND HALF MASSAGE!! ooo the weekend could have ended there and I would have been set..but MY AMAZING OVER ACHIEVING BOYFRIEND had all kinds of plans:)Thursday night he took me to Shapleys, soooooooooooo GOOD! I got to dress up all pertyyy and stuff..he looked pretty smoking as well!! :)

working that number 2-4

i mean,yea he's a winner

little excited about the 24th landmark,sorta:)

date for life

MY PRESENTS:)

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Friday was INSANE..let me sum it up and I'll let photos do the talking..

FIRST THINGS FIRST, MY BEST &HER HUBBY CK GOT ME THIS

A-FLIPPIN-MAZING BANNER MADE!

i was a little too excited about it..just a tad

My ladies..that lady in the white there is one the best women I've had the pleasure of knowing

((Terri's mom,Sharon.She teaches us all so much,laughs when we fall,yet scoops us up))

 ... the night

nothing like water! :)

do you know who I AM!?

Framing!

 Tbaby&Ker bear 

MY BEAUTIFUL PAINTING TERRI DID FOR ME!! 

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Saturday (day) I go to go with my JoshE to "Bruce,Ms" to meet most of his mothers side of the family..I honestly was pumped about this.. I love that kinda stuff. 

We went to this flower shop after the Reunion and I about died when I saw this bench,too bad it wouldn't fit in the jeep ..plus they may have looked at us kinda funny considering it wasn't for sale! hah loved it, 

I'll just make one one day

Saturday (night)

I got surprised by a group of friends at Biaggis,DELISH!

We hit up Smoothie king afterwards..of course:)

A Stu :)

<3

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Sunday I took a drive to Elzy as Josh stayed back to watch the game.I got some great time in with my daddy-o ....this is what I was graced with when I walked into his room... 

look at that gem :) haha he was sooo excited to see me! I can tell :)

He gave me the sweetest cards,he couldn't decide between two,so he got both haah!

I LOVE THEM! 

If you know me,you know I love cards,and I keep every.single.one!

While I was at Elzy I got the craziest idea to get all the rest of my clothes from there and my portable closet! I looked like I was moving!! Insane..here's a little tid bit of a photo to sorta show you how packed the bat mobile was..

Imma start calling it :Bumble bee: it can simply transform into a hummer ! haa

Never again,, today is spent "airing all my clothes out " cause they smell like wood or sumtin,

Keeping it classy,why yes that's my ironing board sitting on two chairs

ehhh this is just my first round,it'll take me all week!

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hmmm so as you can see I've got a lot of CRAP to do!

SEATTLE ROAD TRIP STARTS MONDAY!!

AND I was just informed by T that my suitcase is too big prob,cause ole CK is a hoarder! poo, smaller bag..I'll just have to pack light,and shop more while there! haha

I stole this little photo from Terri

I'm sure we'll hate each other by the time we reach Seattle! haah

oooooooook that's all for today!

LOVES!