I've been a bad bad... blogger!

Ooo so I'm horrible at this. I feel like everyone that reads this is my FB friend. I forget to post pics and update you on my amazing life I have ;) I apologize, I'll try to be better.. p--romise!

some random updates..

I surprised JoshE for his bday with a few games of PAINTBALL!

my birthday boy

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...and here's my first round of 

T.T.T

T. I have an odd addiction to cookie dough, its so dang good and by cookie dough I mean like its not even  really good if its cooked, gimme raw! I love Nestle Toll house Ultimate Chocolate Chip Lovers! Sooo many chips! mm I was a big girl in another life, I just know it.. a red headed one at that.. fiyacraka!

I mean it's bad.. I wouldn't even share with my best friend! Well, to be fair I asked once if she wanted a piece,she turned me down,but THEN found out we were making homemade ice cream and said she'd add some to it and it would be yummy! I almost.had.a.heart.attack!! I tried calling Josh to tell him to get another pack thinking Terri would want to use a lot of and I was fearing running out! This.is.horrible! The chika only wanted a piece for hers haha - I almost fainted at the thought of losing my dear packet.. BAD! LOL I like to think the calories will never catch up to me..let me dream ;)

TT. I love when Josh cooks.. it's so sexy~ hah I mean I can cook(shh just don't tell him) I just don't like to.. I question myself too much and I'm used to cooking kinda plain cause I grew up with my dad and he doesn't like flavor he can see! Josh loves putting all kinds of random things in his food. THIS INTIMIDATES ME! He's a total chef! When we have kids imma be like "ok kids,drive through it is ,dad's working late" haha

I don't trust myself, imma burn something down! ((I have murdered some pot holders once or twice))

I do like to clean and do laundry though!! I love to disinfect! and smell that fabric softener!! mmmm

                   I'M DOMESTICATED!! 

TTT. I am extremely paranoid, but hey I THINK IT'S A GOOD THING!! I don't want someone attacking me and me not being ready! I have weapons.. and I totally get made fun of every time I'm around my friends.. I've got my taser, mace,I even have a personal alarm that's insanely loud..and my FIST! I recommend every woman carry these things! you never know and if u can carry a brush or makeup bag or whatever you got in that suit case of a purse you can slide these puppies where they can easily be reached..

this is exactly what I have:

^^Get this spray, NOT the pink one.. this one contains UV dye and more shots^^

... call me crazy but I would love these!

it's a Blackjack u can get it one of two ways(that's both right there) I like the rod one.. It has lead in it and a spring which causes a whipping action when you flick your wrist.

predator down! Call me crazy but this would totally work! I mean intense yes, 

but would definitively be useful!

The Knuckle Blaster stun gun this easy to grip stun gun can not be taken away from you it fits right over the knuckles. This stun gun packs a powerful 950,000 volts of power!

You're probably thinking.."Haley ,really that's a little much.. "NAH I don't wanna conceal any weapon I have..heck I want a t-shirt that says "I have weapons.. mess with me" haha I don't want them to test me! Nooo ,I just want to be prepared for when crazies strike!

I also would love to take a self defense class,great workout too!

GET you one! 

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promise to be more consistent with my bloggy blog :)

LOVE YOU

short and sweet

((From my 23rd bday, 24 is right around the corner SEPT 29TH hint hint))

Friday ...a day everyone else in the world is excited about cause they have things called "weekends" I have one of those "holidays" this weekend! Kinda pumped I must say! The BEST FRANDD will be in town so A+ there!! 

That hot mama makes me happy

I need a new j.o.b wait scratch that CAREER I need one of those. But, I'm anti school so there's a wall to bust through. I just wanna learn a trade. I like to bounce around and try too many things to just have to focus on one! hmmm dilemmas......o.k I know things I'm interested in.. baby stuff.. like baby clinics, sonography, kid related things..physical therapy,chiropractic ,vet ..animal type places... see RANDOM! 

I want Mon-Fri ... possibility to wear scrubs the entire time! I hate trying to figure out what to wear!

 ((Who doesn't))

I mean call me crazy but I was born to LIVE not WORK 24-7 I wanna enjoy life..and by that I mean weekends! Those little vacas everyone else gets! Retail blows. end.of.story.

I love the makeup artistry world but I've aced it..now I'm bored,plus the ppl I work with are about to make me start blowing heads off! Now I cant get away with that so my best bet is to switch paths righttt?!? 

I think so

Looking back on the past..Time warps

You live you learn
You love you learn
You cry you learn
You lose you learn
You bleed you learn
You scream you learn

- Alanis

Time changes every second... every.single.second. It's insane to me that looking back I was sooo different. I can't help but give credit to the experience of growing up in a small town. Drama starts in circles and spins outta control from there. We "date" ppl we know,you don't know anything else to do, you end up dating friends...every time.. and in a small town "they" are all friends,,, so in turn you end up dating a circle .. a dramatic one at that. First off "dating" Jr. high doesn't count but that's totally what it's called. Insane,where were we going? A friends house? One where you'll run in to the "Ex" or "Exs" haha hilarious, my future kids aren't "dating" till they are 18 I swear! 

One teaches you then someone teaches them and so on and so on- we learn,even when we don't realize it

Sometimes I wonder if I went into situations knowing they weren't supposed to 'be' and did them out of comfort? I can't help but feel that way about Justin. You see I dated this fella almost 5 years! why? We were best as just friends... I like to think of this as my final yet first real experience with real "dating" I was 18..my sister had just passed away at 22 and I was lost and he ended up knowing her,, was I just some how connected to him because of this?.. then it spiraled into something else? things happened and I should have gotten out, but I didn't... I feel as if I was passing time with a friend instead of being alone and open to destruction of the "dating" world yet I was being broken down the entire time. I didn't win, even though I was fighting the entire time. I was fighting to be chosen. to win. I was losing myself in the fight. 

When I finally woke up before hating him beyond control ( which others think I should have hated him immediately) ......

 I found my soul.. MY JOSH

not that I need a person to complete me.. I live in moments.. apparently...but this is my lifetime.

I knew him the entire time.. ironic!? yet,all I knew was "friends don't work as relationships" ..I took the leap anyway..and for once it was the best thing I've ever done..I've never been happier.

My "dating" life was short and sweet and I THANK GOD...I'm not built to jump around, I'm a solid soul one meant for love and family.. not tainted circles of pain and confusion.

See with Josh things didn't go well for him either,,we've loved each other for so long yet never voiced it unless we "we're joking" or in our minds. We have both learned that we were insane for not jumping on our love boat sooner:) and we let "friends" get in the way of us. We wanted to save the drama and almost didn't make the best decisions of our lives based on what we others would say or think... we took the plunge,and I'm not looking back.

"as friends ,always there for me.."

"just friends"

You see I said something up there^ a little confusing "insane for not jumping on our love boat sooner" ...yet "sooner",isn't what this is about... 

it was perfect timing and that's something I'll always believe. Something I know is the truth, no confusion,no second guessing, JOSH AND HAPPENED WHEN WE WERE SUPPOSED TO. We are on our own watch, we do things when we do them..we for once have the best timing.

"the day we decided to change our lives"

"almost two years strong"

I love you Josh Edmiston..endlessly

You grieve you learn
You choke you learn
You laugh you learn
You choose you learn
You pray you learn
You ask you learn
You live you learn 

-Alanis 

Feeling Fierce

Well lets see my last post was slightly angry,, this one is almost just the same,, I'm a funny gal but ppl annoy me and I get ticky ya know?!?!

I'll be quick then get to something fun.. let a gal vent:) it is MY blog  ;)

:: OK.. so if I ever say I'm going to do something,I do it.. not when I find time get around to it type do it.. I DO IT then and it has to be done right then!!! I cant wait I gotta "FIX" everything... yea that's not working out for me anymore. I used to be sooo angry towards certain specific things,won't name those..and I totally gave up on that, wasn't really working, angry Haley never works... so I decided "hey,lets be nice and see where that gets me" well guys, it hasn't gotten me very far! Today I snapped ,silent calm Haley doesn't get stuff done.. no one takes her serious... so I'm feeling errrrr again!! I don't like this.. I'm having a what Terri calls "a wall moment" today I smacked right into it! I say I'mma fix a situation that honestly does not benefit me,well most ppl would dollylack around and then do it... well I'm busting my butt doing all I can as a 23 year old can! I can't change the world homes! I wanna fix this issue we're at,can't change the past but I can help the NOW.. but I can't do it all and why complain and bite my head off when I mention ONE little remark that doesn't even change the fact it's getting done and done fast at all?!?~ in no way is it holding it up... yet ppl decide to take it out on me... I'm sorry charlie NO MORE- nice Haley is out the door> screaming.. you want me to fix something I have no real way of doing unless I break toes and fingers, well don't test me,, I'll break yours off too!! I'mma make what needs to happen,happen rest assured and keep your mouth shut plz- :)
I mean that with the MOST LOVE POSSIBLE

i want this little angry guy/or/gal :)

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on to fun loving ....

ADAM LEVINE IS HOT< CAN I GET AN AMEN?!?! that'll put a smile on anyone's face,,, 

and my go to all time favorite man hunkahunk RYAN REYNOLDS! woo gotta breath on that one..

and as Terri mentions in her blog the BF-JoshE prob wont like the end of this blog ^^those fella.. but sorry! haha YOU'RE HOT AND YOU KNOW IT!! 

see these guys are in their early 30s and for some reason ever "celeb guy" I find hot is around that age...I find this odd- and so does my fella for life Josh- bka JoshE..is it weird that I can't wait till he gets grey in his hair ,and that I love the scruff?!! nahh :)

smoking' HOT.. easily said! 

welp,,, I'm out lovers!!

Stressful people I'm.... FULL

Man...I'm done ya know..ppl are flipping stressing me out! I don't know what to tell these folks,, I'm completely retarded from it.
like I don't get it.. if someone ignores u,they don't wanna talk to u correct?!?! So screw em! Don't continue to be like "ooo I'll call u again,maybe then you'll magically decide to answer".. NO they won't, they don't wanna talk,cause they are 1. crazy 2.scared 3. a liar and  finally 4. completely insane and a ppl user!! I'm going with 4 for an all the above type of answer.

----I hate ppl users: Person that completely runs allll over another individual just to get what they want outta life. you're pathetic ,,,simple---

and what I hate /don't get even more is the ppl that let it happen to them!! What is going on in your head ppl!? the other retard (u know that one USING YOU) is a turd.point.blank
get over them..get off your butt and kick them in theirs!! I'll even help!!

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Now for the ppl that stress me out by worrying me to DEATH about situations YOU CAN FIX,yes I'll help you,I would love nothing more than to see you happy and skipping but I CAN NOT DO IT ALL! If I give you a great motivational speech,it doesn't mean I'm going to go out and complete the mission for you!! YOU HAVE TO! Your life choices are yours.... not mine, I have plenty of my own to make.... I plan on being a mommy one day,but you ppl are burning me out before I can get started!!!

...I don't want credit, really I don't, I just want u so somehow bitterly sweet kinda NOT NEED ME TO WIPE YOUR BUTT... surprise me ... ask me for advice, not exactly what to do and when I tell u DON'T NOT DO IT.. I'm soooo happy to help,really I am, I know now I sound grrrr but really I love to help... but it's just that HELP, not create, conquer,marching band type completely finish!! It's up to u ..I wanna cheer you on, not wipe my sweat .. ya know... I believe in ever inch of your being... whatever u think :I have: you have more.. situations are by chance u put yourself there and you're there cause u can CONQUER.

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and I'm done ranting :)

Is it sad I created a blog just for Terri?!?!

ooo boy o boy! You know it's something serious when you've became so obsessed with your best friend that you start copying her!! butttt, it's okay cause Mrs.Knight is used to this kinda behavior :)

I'm blogging just for you mu dear!

where do I start?! I say I make this post all about MY BEST FRIEND...I mean after all this ranting and raving is all her fault right?!

first things first:
she is awesome.. annoying at times, crazy controlling,and sometimes slightly kinda mean,,, but awesome
shes my rock,my glue,my sanity

Sometimes I seriously wonder what I would do without her..I mean she's the first person I think of when I think of a "new life plan" I always wanna run it by her,get her input. Not that I necessarily LISTEN ....but you know I did say "run it by her" :)She's just the type that tells you exactly what she thinks,and in the past I hardly listened. Looking back I KNOW I SHOULD HAVE SHUT UP<AND LISTENED... but I'm not the regretful type..so moving on....LIVE and LEARN!

you don't wanna mess with this gal :)





all in all I love her,endlessly and she helps mold me.. totally true. irreplaceable,that girl.


One who finds a faithful friend, finds a treasure.